Context is everything. If you have a big enough picture, all life experience makes sense. I have been driven to understand how life works. I have found some answers. 

I was very fortunate to find a teacher who showed me that some of the fundamental answers are within, and how to access that within. 

In depth one discovers the life force is inherently good and ever more creative. In depth one gains perspective and objectivity and clarity on thought and emotion and conditioned responses. In depth one realises that all of life is to be given away.

If freedom is what you want and is still elusive, just keep going deeper, you will find it. One day you will start to know, as a tree that has grown and is bearing fruit. The fruit is not for us, as it is not for the tree - it is for everyone else, and in that it is for us.